You did. No one would abandon you if you aren't, how you define, as normal, and being upset or hurt doesn't make you not normal. No one would abdonon you, trust me, but if these thoughts won't just go away by themselves, again, I suggest seeing a therapist. They can help. Give it a chance.
It isn't your fault, and you shouldn't feel guilty you are unable to protect him, because you weren't the one who killed him. There are gonna be people that think negatively of characters, no character in this game is immune to that, best thing is to ignore it.
Also, just advice, don't always feel like anyone or everyone is disappointed in you because it just makes things worse. Outfront honesty, you shouldn't really care what anyone thinks of you or Louis. It's best to ignore these comments, because taking them seriously does more harm and ignoring them takes out any element of possible harm. From experience, I used to care what other people thought of me, and that caused me once to be vulnerable to their thoughts. I can't change their thoughts, and I decided not to live my life for them, but for me. I don't care what they think, it got better. Try the same when you feel like someone is dissapointed in you or if you see an anti-Louis comment.
Also, please don't take this the wrong way, but while I try to give you support with these comments, I'm not medically trained or professional enough to deal with this scenario. I'm no therapist or a doctor, much less even attended one medical or behavioral class. I'm not qualified or educated on this. I strongly advise you to see a therapist other than members on this wiki, or at the very least your parents, since they know much better than me, or any other person on here. They can help better and understand better than us, even me.
I can’t do it, I just want to hurt myself every time I see negative things about Louis.
I feel like I don’t belong in this world, no matter how hard I, everyone would just think I bother them.....this community won’t accept people who have mental illness, they value hating on a character more than my life.......and they can justify making me suicidal just by the word ‘opinion’.......
I feel dead everyday, no matter how hard I tried, I am still depressed.......
I'm glad, because I hope you're feeling alright. If you need a break, in real life or from this wiki, it's alright. Take your time, but know that there are always people to support your decisions and thoughts. Hope things go out well for you :)
I actually agree, because he never got such a good role in the series end. They killed him off - as the sole of the Ad Astrans in Newmark, he never got any Chapter Images, and they - yes - did ruin his character. Before it was just him being a friend to Zoe, and after 52 cases, they decided to open the curtains and turn him not only into an Ad Astran - but to reveal he was never friends with Zoe and was trying to kill her all along.
About the fandom, I just wanted to say - there are so many messed up characters out there in CC universe, even some more messed up and butchered, but I'll be honest - no one really hates any character out there. They dislike the characters, I'll admit, and sometimes say these comments, but it's really just a game, and they aren't real people at all, so no one here really "hates" Louis. They just got mad at him for killing Zoe and all that, but no one really hates him, there are even more hateable characters, like Denise, and no one really hates Louis to some limit it's extreme. I understand he has a special place and is a form of support to you, and I respect that, and there may be users, maybe like one, who acts as a form of hating on him, but to be honest, he's a cool character. He's the last Ad Astran revealed - think about the fact he had the most cases compared to every other Ad Astran where he was liked:
Rozetta: Was legit hated from the start from what I seen, since it was very obvious she was a villain
Julia: Had the fewest appearances and was hated on her 2nd one ("A Pointy End")
Christian: Was hated since the end of Money Mile, before Rozetta, not because of his reveal, but his... torture problems. He's a physcopath, let's be honest.
Joe: 2nd to last, but he was revealed before Louis, and 2 distrcts focused on his Ad Astran personality
Louis: On the other hand, was a innocent character for the longest time, and so many people suspected Wilcox, Russo, Jake, and so many other people as Ad Astrans. Not one person I read suspected Louis. People loved Louis then. And he's an important character to the series - think about it, he got the Ad Astrans their powers by stealing the serum. He's the driving force behind the Conspiracy too.
I'm trying to say delicately, understanding Louis is special, that PS butchers almost every character it makes. Death, murder, crazy personality, hate - it does to pretty much all good characters. They made the story since they made the character, and Head Case, Playing Dead, and Breaking News, are in the Conspiracy. In this world, Louis is seen as an Ad Astran, and his transition was messed up, I agree with you, but Louis isn't really being "bashed" and the fandom isn't even "following" PS - the last comment on his page by another user, April 26th, was actually a compliment. No one hates Louis.
But he matters to you, and how you view him is yours to decide, and no one can take away your appreciation for him. You can make your own fan fics, you can print pictures of him, and make him the best character there is. On the FanFic wiki, so many hated characters on this wiki, and Louis isn't even that hated, are good characters people like on the fanfic. Louis really didn't do anything wrong that much that you making a fan fic could draw hate towards him. It's your character fan fic, and no one's gonna stop you.
I agree again that Louis was butchered by the writers, but there's nothing that I, the other users, or even the admins and bureacrats of this wiki can do. All the staff here just put what happens in the game in the wiki. There's nothing we can do - but (I understand you said you are feeling better, but still, I'm just saying), please don't get ideas that hurting yourself or killing yourself to shut down a company to avenge Louis is worth it. It isn't. Louis can be altered in any way in your fan fics, but death is a very tragic thing. I'm not saying negative things or thinking negative things, and please don't think I'm saying anything that may hurt you - I'm not. I don't want you to hurt yourself, and I know you don't want us to worry, but it is concerning because we care. Please, if you ever feel suicidal or even self-harming, call the number I put on your message wall. Please. If you need to see a therapist, if you need to talk, please do so, but please never attempt to even hurt yourself. You matter so much to this world, your family, your friends. It's not worth losing your life.
I'm there for you, higuys is there, and from your comments recieved on your blog. So many people care.
Im sure me and a lot of people will love it! :D
I can help. Leave a message on my message wall if you are feeling down :D - Higuys
I wish you the best of luck - Batman
don't think of hurting yourself, please - Sploderscience
Nobody wants you to die. There are people in your life who love you. You are important in this world. :) - Higuys
You can leave a message anytime you want, I'll try to be as active as I can, sometimes I may not be active but I'll do my best. I won't judge you for your thoughts, or your opinions, at all. That's a promise, a solid promise. If you feel upset or have something you want to say, you're always welcome to come back to this profile message wall. Even if it takes up many threads, I'm willing to talk and help you as I'm here, and when I'm here. This wiki isn't your only place either, talk to your family. Higuys is a nice guy, he loves making fan fics, and he said he could collab with you, so you can ask him again. Even if some users still don't change opinions about Louis to liking him, remember we won't change our opinion to hating him. I like him. He's a cool character. He's an important character. We're here for you, but please, never consider suicide. If you ever have any thoughts that can result in harm, or represent harm or death, you're always to free to write on my message wall. Writing about any thoughts like this actually, interestingly, releases the stress and makes these thoughts disappear. And you can write it here - because I won't judge you for it, and I'll keep it confidential (if you ever need to talk to someone, you can always do so when you're comfortable, and I won't do anything behind your back)
Sorry for the late reply, but it's not something you need to thank me for. It's always important to help someone out in need, and to keep them safe. I hope we can help her together, it seems like the blog idea of yours could possibly work out. Ill help you and her whenever I am online
I will, and I know she isn't doing it for attention either, and I hope people can take it seriously as well. I'll try my best to be online whenever I can and check back, because it's a person's life in danger here, and this is a serious issue with horrible effects if people take it light. You and I both realize that, and we will try all we can. I'll message you if anything comes up
Oh sorry about that. I have some things to do over the summer and they take up a lot of my time. If we're chatting at any point, (this is a time I am free), and I suddenly stop replying, that means I have to do something. For example, summer assignments, since back to school is coming around, and they get tough as we go on .-.
I'll try to chat whenever I'm free and able to, and I will reply and check back, but if I don't I'll try to come back at another time.
Also, just asking, do you know anything about Leavegirl's comment on Louis' page yestarday? She said again her emotional support is gone and no one is supporting Louis, and I'm worried for her. Being completely honest here, im worried about the fact she feels like she wants to die or get hurt for Louis to be avenged, as in the character. No one in the fandom even hates Louis, they just - at the time of the Conspiracy - disliked him because of his Ad Astran persona, but with any other character in the game, nobody hates Louis. But what worries me: It's alright if someone puts emotional support on anything, even a video game character, if they feel happy. I don't know exactly what Leavegirl went through in school - I know it's bullying but I wasn't there and can't judge the extremes - and it's nice to see her happy, even if she's happy because of Louis. But when that emotional support reliance becomes tight, and anything happens to the character, and feelings of suicide or self-harm erupt, it's something I'm worrying about.
Rip I haven't been checking my message wall. Don't feel bad, I'm sure you'll do fine. If you love doing fanfics, do it, and I'll definitely support you. The worst that could happen is writer's block, and you'll get over that too
1. There's no way you can "mess up" a fanfic if you're the writer. It's your ideas, your choice, and your art. Plus, video game companies mess up all the time (see Clyde Black's face for an example), but they get around that some way or another
2. People won't "not" like you for making your own fanfic. Some people's fanfics are more popular than others, but that doesn't mean the others are not liked. Especially, the people behind it won't "not" be liked. The only reason a fanfic writer could be logically hated is if their fanfic is offensive, racist, phobic in some sense, or if the hater is just some troll or letdown
3. Don't be scared, and every fan fic writer had a point they never showed their fanfics to anyone. There are actually stories that were disliked before they were popular like Harry Potter. Just see how it goes
I may not have enough time to dedicate to fanfics sadly, since I have a lot of other things to do and other passions and works in my life, so I may only be able to collaborate once in a while, but I can give you my support. Plus, you can collab with other users who make great fanfics or at the very least ask them for help. You talked to some of them already (like Hasuro and Inspector Diaz (aka Diego)) and they seem to like you.
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