Thread:NessaTasartir16/@comment-24965192-20160207154504/@comment-24576157-20160207194152

Hi Koishi,

I want to say thank you for the support. I took your advice and spoke to Mephistz, and I believe we're okay now. Actually both your words and Mephistz's words brought my confidence back here. Whatever I did here, I wish to start over; I did not mean to hurt anybody and I pray I never will again.

My life is actually a little more difficult than you think: I'm not sure I told you, but I was promised a promotion at my job, and I found out a few days later that my boss had lied to me - I was not getting the promotion, despite my working my butt of for 4 years getting the food to the customers as fast as possible and getting the store sparkling clean. Also, trying to earn money at my job is difficult as almost everyone is only working 10-20 hours a week and not earning the money they need to support themselves this winter; I'm barely earning enough to support myself as a full-time college student, and I have a car payment along with that. And I have to study quite a bit to get good grades, having me lack a social life, which pains me because I'm trying to improve that aspect of my life considering my condition. That's one of the reasons why I went... not like myself here lately.

You are absolutely right, Koi, in that I would usually just ignore those who try to put me down. I'm afraid I haven't been doing a very good job with that lately. I wasn't bullied myself as a child persay, but I would often get the comment that I was ugly or weird, but I ignored them because it was what I was taught to do.

I promise to do the best I can as a bureaucrat (yes, I'm staying :) ), and if I'm doing anything wrong, please tell me so that I can improve. I'm still learning about my own life, it doesn't hurt to learn more about the wiki because there's always something important to learn about.

I pray you'll have a good day, Koi. I would love to chat with you tonight and tomorrow, but I have to study. Maybe Tuesday night?

 Nessa  ♫  19:41, February 7, 2016 (UTC)